Expressions

Express your love to your family
Express your love to your neighbor
Express your love to the unloveable
Express your love to special someone
Express your love to yourself
By doing so, be grateful because you...
Express your love to God

Troubled Soul

as time passes by, things are getting complicated in me. i sometimes stop and reflect and assess myself if i am still in the right track. well to tell you, it was never been that easy to be in my shoes since i have lots of troubles that i needed to deal with. as a Christian, i have been so cautious of myself, my actions, adventures, dealing with different people, among all other aspects. yes, it is true that in spite of everything i have, i never felt content and i could not stop asking for more, more of this and more of that. whew! I'm tired of this. there are times that i just find myself quiet and randomly assessing everything happening to my life. there are times that i wanted to cry it out loudly but no single teardrop wanted to escape from my very eyes. i'm tired. i'm fooled. and then i ended up crying.

Reflection

Is this really what i wanted?

It has been 5 years since i graduated from college. Things have gone very challenging for me. I cannot reckon all the things in details but i kept in my heart those experiences that are worth reminiscing even they are not that good to be recalled.

Many times I have asked myself what are the things that probably would make me happy and fulfilled. Many times I have been praying for a good and comfortable life. Many times I have been into situation where my faith is tested and challenged. Yes, I believe I have gone so far from where I have started yet the question of where I am at is still in a section of lost. Lost? Whoa! how can I say that? I have this winning job. I have this comfortable house. I have this and that. Weeew!!! Isn't it that alarming? I am sounding like I am not content. I am not happy.

Going back to the past for a while, let's reminisce. First. After I graduated in college, I was actually enthusiastic and excited then to find a job. Wow! Welcome to the corporate world! But circumstances have not been so good on my side I would describe. During that period, that was the time my family faced a terrible crisis. My father got sick and we lost him after few months. Yes, that was real tragic. But then again, that was the time that i considered as my starting point. Where do I begin? It is kinda hard for my family to dwell on this issue but we have to face the reality that things happen for a reason and behind this painful realization is the fact that we learn something from, we even discover the things that we are not aware of before the incident happened.

...to be continued